Forgiveness is Selfish

Forgiveness is Selfish. What if I don't  want to share my God. If I don't forgive humans than I cant be forgiven by Jesus. I don't want to lose Jesus. So than I forgive because I am selfish. So I dont have to become a better person to forgive. It has nothing to do we others. If they keep sinning so what its irrelevant. I have been forgiven by Jesus I win.